In the past month, I have been experience constant tiredness. I've been unhappy vastly because of the busy work schedule. This month is officially the first month I have nothing on the "overdue" list. I've been listening to myself and decided it is time to change.
One the very first day of change, I rewatched Minimalism: A Documentary About the Important Things (2016) on Netflix. My first watch was in 2017 when I was in the USA traveling from States to States. I realized the importance of lightness which can save me $25 for each checked bag and the financial value of a mental breakdown of losing my luggage (which I did on my way to Miami). Now it is 2019, I am in Vietnam working from tasks to tasks. I realized money can buy me comfort but strip away my time. And in some cases, time is more valuable than money.
In August, I decided to reduce my workload as Airbnb host. We sold our 2 listings. Within the last two years, I learnt a lot. I learnt to hustle. We worked days and nights. It was incredible time of youth when you have nothing to burn except your strength. We was successful in our own terms, pulled off something that we were very proud of. I learnt that in order to achieve greatness, the only way is constant hustling. But now with the lecturing job, I also have to spend great time and efforts on it. I was exhausted. I can't be half ass at anything. Hence, it is time to choose. It came with great regret from my family and friends since they thought the business was profitable. But I know I can't have it all. From now on, I will do only research and teaching related works. Other will be strictly for fun.
The other lesson I have to learn a hard way was friendship. I know I always want a friend I can work with. I cut my friend circle to the extreme. I suddenly understand why the rest is noise.
A friendship founded on business is better than a business founded on friendship. Don't be afraid to give up the good to go for the great. I have ways of making money that you know nothing of. I believe that every right implies a responsibility; every opportunity, an obligation; every possession, a duty. (John D. Rockefeller)
In modern life, we are mentally tortured by delusional cravings. I craved therefore I have to earn lots to satisfy my cravings. I am a victim of consumerism. Actually, I was a fool. I decided to change my lifestyle.
I will stop buying cosmetic and focus on skincare. So no foundation, mascara. Just lipstick, blush, and eyeshadow quad. Fashion site, I hate most of my clothes now. Especially the "trendy" one. So I decided to focus on tees and trousers. No more frills and patterns. My goal is not spending on cheap clothes. Pay for the basic and high quality one to build a "capsule wardrobe".
Credit to: In Honor of Design
I will start to declutter my life and hope my mental life comes along.